Happy Feast Day of St. Francis of Assisi! This morning I enjoyed a nice cuppa with Father Francis… a nice cup of… almond milk…. yes, almond milk! No, not my beloved and coveted coffee…. Yes I no longer drink coffee… GASP! I know, I know… crazy as it seems I can no longer enjoy one of my all time favorite beverages… due to my evil reflux I had to acknowledge that coffee was indeed what was killing my gut and making me ill… so I had to give it up. *sigh*
Now as you may recall, several years ago for Lent I gave up coffee… worst thing I ever did. Horrible. I was miserable! It was indeed a sacrifice! So here I am years later HAVING to give it up due to my health. So about a month ago, one miserable Monday, I gave it up cold turkey. … and after enduring 3 days of head aches (and doubts!) I am actually happily surprised to say~ I am good. I don’t miss it. Really. Seriously. Ya know why? Grace.
Remember when I prayed back in the summer to be healthy and lose weight and I wound up in the emergency room and I was pretty much forced to eat healthy? Yeah, that. Yeah well, God honored that prayer … He knew it would be difficult for me to do… He gave me the GRACE to do it. I was able to do it and I did not deviate from the plan. I ate less, I ate healthy, and I did not eat any junk food for over 2 months (well, on my birthday I, of course, celebrated and ate cake, chips and cider donuts…) and I lost approximately 20 lbs! Woooo HOOOO! Only by the grace of God was I able to do that! Because Lord knows I could not do that on my own.
So during this whole healthy eating cleanse it dawned on me… Again I am giving something up … being created new … I feel like, little by little, I am living…enduring … a perpetual Lent! Six years ago I gave up beer (alcohol) and I do not miss it (that is GRACE!). I feel that every once in awhile God prunes me, makes me give something up, even when I do not want to(!!!), but He gives me the grace to do it and to become a better version of me.
I think that is why I love St. Francis so much. He was a wild party animal… but was touched and transformed by God…
I feel the same way, if God can work through me He can work through anyone… Thank you Lord for your love, mercy and grace. Thank you for always challenging me and working in me… for changing me for the better… though at times I go kicking and screaming… you help me through. Amazing grace.
and St. Francis was the father of fasting….
hahaha. Happy Feast Day my Franciscan peeps. Pax et bonum.