”Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” Matthew 11:28
*Sigh* Thank you, Lord.
As the dust settles on yet another crazy, stressful school year I am finally able to exhale and smile. I made it. Relief floods me and I am finally able to rip that burden off my shoulders and stomp on it. Hahahaha die, die, DIE! Mwuahahahahaahaha …
oops… sorry about that.
… Ah, summer. A long sweet, green road stretched out before me…. I so need this summer break… time at the lake, bike rides on the rail trail, camping, water parks, and mountains of novels… ah. So looking forward to doing a whole bunch of wonderful nothing. I so deserve it.
I survived yet another hell-ish year. Why do I do this? (Suffering to save souls! Hahahaha!!!) Because I love it!! Hahaha! Well, I suppose I cannot say it was all hell-ish, because it wasn’t. I love my students~ I feel I make a difference in their lives. They are why I do this! I am their mom at school. They are “MY” kids! I just received yet another email from a grateful parent, thanking me for all I have done for her daughter and wishing me a wonderful summer. I also received gifts and cards and best of all ~ hugs… actually… best of all: seeing 8 of my students, who I have been on my caseload for 3 years, graduate!!! I know this is important work… even when there are some who do not see how much I do, how much I care, and the extra ten miles I go to make sure my students have what they need to be successful… but we won’t go there… I won’t get into not being appreciated. I know the reason why I do this and that is all that matters.
God placed me on this road for a reason. And this year He saw how difficult and stressful it became for me…. So He did me a favor. He shut a door. He made me stop. He made me rest. I will not be teaching summer camp this summer. Though at first I was a bit upset by this… now I see it is a blessing in disguise. I now see its benefits and I have decided this is the best thing that could happen to me this year… a well-deserved rest. Time to just BE with him, with my family and rest.
Sure I have plans to clean out the basement, scrape wall paper and paint bedroom walls, work on my collection of short stories (maybe get it self-published?!!) … but my most important mission this summer is to just be still, be quiet, to sit out back in the sunshine, look at the blue sky and be calmed by the tall whispering trees … and, what I need most, to just listen to God. My life has been so chaotic and noisy these past several years. I need to just BE. I need to just be with God …. to quiet my soul in His presence.
I need this… I need to be human again…
Thank you Abba Father.